Throwing in the towel

I almost stopped today. For a good hour this morning, I almost pulled the plug on it all.

Does my voice matter?

Does this blog make a difference?

Is it helping me to share all this with you all?

What if I regret what I share?

What will my children think about all of this?

I have so much on right now. I am about to start an MSc in senior leadership, I am working full time, I have two very young children, I work out 4/5 times a week for a couple of hours, I write and run a blog, I am preparing a podcast for launch, I try to listen and read to tons of content to fuel my mind and writing, I am starting a book club in a Facebook group I am part of and I have lost 90% of my contacts due to leaving my faith and changing my job.

I guess when I look at all this, I can see why I feel like I am drowning.

My amazing wife reminds me from time to time to stop viewing these things as lists. A good friend tells me to drop anything if it doesn’t make me happy. I appreciate having people I can send this shit to when it just all gets too much, I don’t have nearly as many as I used to, but I know who stood by me when my whole fucking world caved in.

I guess, if you read this, I did.

Told you I would be really fucking honest 😉

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Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. It has taken me a few years to get to a place where I am able to share my loss of faith and to start writing about the journey that I am still on for you all. I hope you find it useful.

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When Belief Dies #68 – 'An exchange of monologues…' with Daniel Kelly When Belief Dies

This week Sam is joined by Daniel and together they reflect on the last few conversations they have had together with other guests on the show. In short, we dive into Christianity and its sway upon the world today. The video version of this conversation can be found here on our YouTube channel 12 hours after the audio version goes live. This is the first episode recorded on the new PC, please bear with me as  I get used to working on Windows (used to be Mac OS), and also new audio & video editing software. Steep learning curve incoming 😉 Notes & Corrections:   I say 'Theodicy' in this conversation when talking about reading the  person of Jesus back into the OT, the term I meant was  'Theophany' Article about Neanderthals, art & jewellery You can find/follow Daniel here:   Twitter We hope you enjoy our show. When Belief Dies aims to honestly reflect on faith, religion and life. Your support via Patreon enables us to cover the costs of running this show and look to the future to make things even better as we build upon what we already have in the works. Please take a look and consider giving. Alternatively, you can support the show with a one-off gift via PayPal. Use the following link to navigate to the website, to find us on social media and anywhere else we might be present online. #Podcast #Deconstruction #God #Agnostic #Christian #Atheism #Apologetics #Audio #Question #Exvangelical #Deconversion #SecularGrace #Exchristian
  1. When Belief Dies #68 – 'An exchange of monologues…' with Daniel Kelly
  2. When Belief Dies #67 – 'Psychedelics, History & Hope' with Pat Smith
  3. When Belief Dies #66 – 'Social Contracts' with Kane B
  4. When Belief Dies #65 – 'History for Atheists' with Tim O'Neill
  5. When Belief Dies #64 – 'The morality of an Infidel' with Simon Blackburn

6 thoughts on “Throwing in the towel

  1. When I started my blog, I didn’t know if anybody was reading it. So I thought of it as writing for myself.

    No, not writing so that I could read it later. Just writing, because writing up stuff help clarify one’s thoughts.

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  2. I know for me all the work you’ve put into When Belief Dies has been extremely helpful in my life and actually gives me hope that there’s somewhere out there who I can actually relate to, unlike every single loved person in my life who is a devote christian.
    I mega appreciate all your content and it’s meant a lot to me. Much love Sam!

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    1. Thank you for this Jacob, appreciate you letting me know this and it’s awesome to know you get something from this blog 😊✌️

      Day made 🙌🎉


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